I got called into the assistant principal’s office this morning after second period and was told that I wouldn’t be invited to the next round of interviews.
The entire experience was surreal and more than a little insulting, really. “It’s not YOU,” the guy told me, “we had a very deep pool of candidates.” A pool in which, apparently, I drowned.
His communication of my rejection felt a lot more like a bad teenaged break-up than anything I would expect in a professional setting. He kept stressing the fact that it wasn’t ME, that there were a lot of other, equally qualified and impressive individuals who were also passed up, and that he’d be happy to personally recommend me to any other schools I might want to apply to (though he didn’t say this, all I heard from that was “I don’t want you, but someone else might”). Seriously, people; I was in the office, being subjected to this stuff, for about ten minutes longer than I felt was necessary. I get that I’m not in the running for the job, can we stop pretending that you feel badly about it so I can get out of here before I lose it?
Aside from the whole feeling of “it’s not that we don’t like you, it’s that we don’t LIKE you, like you,” I’m feeling upset by a couple of things: 1) He didn’t offer me any information about what successful candidates did, said, or had that I didn’t. 2) He made a big deal about telling me that I had a lot of strong support from the panel (leading me to believe that he made an executive decision, in his ultimate wisdom, that kept me from the second round of interviews) and 3) neither he nor anyone else on the panel ever made any effort to come to see me actually TEACHING. I’m in the school every day – I teach classes by myself every day – I specifically invited both the assistant principal and the department head to come to watch me teach a class and no one availed themselves of the opportunity to see what kind of teacher I already am.
I’m sorry if I’m ranting; I’m still trying to get over the surprisingly painful sting of this day. I do have to say that several people, who were enthusiastic and supportive of my hope to be hired into the department, came to me to offer their continued support and encouragement over the course of the day. I am SO grateful to them, even if I was a little standoffish. It was difficult to accept such kindness and not lose my composure. Maybe by Monday I’ll have enough distance from this to thank them properly.