Today wasn’t so bad; I think I’m finding balance in all of this. The fact that PTrinity’s husband had that story to tell me on the very day that I was passed over for the job is just a little too coincidental for me to not believe that the Universe is telling me something. Add to that the fact that two of the panelists approached me today to tell me that it really just sucks, that there’s nothing that I could or should have done differently, that it was just the way the proverbial cookie crumbled and I’m starting to believe that I didn’t screw things up for myself, that it really IS just the way it is. It’s still a little on the tough side for me to accept; I like to think that, if you do everything right, you get what you’re aiming for though yes, I know, that’s not how the world works. Well, dammit, maybe it should.
So, I’m off to spread the word about my availability. It’d be nice to get some calls back. As much as I loved my “old job,” I’m really hoping that my first year as a licensed teacher isn’t spent as a stay-at-home mom.